obsession

i so gotta share this.
HAHA

the test was do-a-ble
but i dont think i will get
highest in class
its not essay qn =(

anyway, recess wk is here
so happy going to start on my
assess

ok. did i mentioned i fail
my driving
ya. ok. sorry still upset.
haha

and my bags are arriving soon
wah. cant wait

ok. the onli module which i currently enjoy is ccl
because the tutor loves my group
and my group is always the best.
haha. the presentation ours was obviously the best.
and we discussed it through msn.
unbelivable!

anyway,
i hate goodbyes
i feel so bad telling parents i leaving
they were quite sad.
some asked me to teach privately.
ok. i would love to.
but if i accept one, i have to accept all.
crazy. i cant do that.
and i cant drive yet.
so there.
wah but piano one hour is like 50 bucks
haha. ok.

bio test friday. i must finish studying today.
i want to get highest in class.
somehow i think that
dr sam thinks i can answer her questions
that's why she always pick on me
and she just call me lor.
never ask the question first
dr sam: "AMEERAH!"
me: huh? what? what i do wrong? (looks blur)
dr sam: so when do u use a hot probe and a not so hot probe?
me: huh? what kind of question is that. i there such thing as a hot probe?
"erm. can u repeat the question. probe, for the pcr?"
dr sam: ya, when to use hot probe and no hot probe
me: looks at dee for answer. erm when.... erm the DNA
dr sam: yes, the DNA... so?
me: concentration?
dr sam: yes, exactly
me: phew..................
dr sam: So tell me, how do u identify whether a person is infected with a disease in his blood. ameerah tell me
me: (in my head: WHAT ME AGAIN????)
me: "erm, so u have the blood sample, get the DNA"
dr sam: wat u mean get the DNA
me: looks frantically at nad for help.. nad fails to respond
me: erm.... amplify through PCR?
dr sam: yes. then after that....
me: (HUH? still me? in my head)erm.... so u have the PCR so u hybridize next?
dr sam: yes. thank you... (and then babbles on and on abt God noes wat)

WAH LAU. she seriously only calls me in class.
i get so shocked half of the time.
haha. ok ok.
biology.

math test tom.
must score.

i will be on task.
k. must study.

one more thing.
long distance is tough.
but we are soooo gonna work hard!

ah crap i am a failure
i failed driving
i am gonna fail my piano dip too
and i am going to fail school.
see i am a failure.
crap crap crap.
i have to do something about it.

i feel soooooo protected
so many ppl want to beat the crap of the stalker.
i can set up secret society already. haha.
haha. muaks i love u all my friends.

its always during this super important
final year i lose focus.
maybe its a jinx or something.

i am so not going into msn anymore.
not bringing my handphone round anymore.
i am going to be unconnected.
and i am going to be a lesbi.

arrrgghh.
i am so angry lah.
would u date ur boss or ur supervisor
or someone bigger than u.
of course they got money lah.
but they are super old right?
and this will so jeapordize ur future career.
either u suceed or not.
i want to succeed but not in such unsrcupolous
china like method.
ya, serves me right for wanting a rich
old man.
but i did say DYING rich old man.
not rich old man onli.
rich old man have money
but have generation gap with moi
and is clearly not dying.

and why is it that always.
i tell u always like this.
when one, come,
two, three, four also come.
ok i want the fourth one.
the latest one.
haha. that one i chase.

socialisising is a tiresome process.
ok.
starting today. i am soooooo not going to go online,
not going to bring my phone around.
heh.
call me from my hse phone if anything.
ulu times.