obsession

today
at 6p.m.
the agent is going to come
and renew siti's contract
wah i so sad.
why cannot get new maid
sad sad sad.
i am doomed to eat curry for the next one year
i have a sad life.......
i asked mummy
Mummy why never change maid???
Mummy says" You ask daddy la!!!"
Why must daddy make my life difficult
he wants me to die of eating curry.
her curry is not nice
imagine eating curry almost everyday
and please ah.
she just use the ready made curry
not as though she go and pound the leaves
bla bla bla
no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mummy says she likes to cook curry
cause it is the easiest what
crappinessssssss.
i have to tolarate one more year
of this.
must be patient
must breathe.
lucky her passport expire next year
if daddy never change maid
i am so hiring one myself
yes. ameerah got enough
money to hire maid.
she rich what.
ya but she is a stingy poker.
next sem (july)
i will be even stingy poker.
stingy stingy old poker.

speaking of money.
i think if i get married
and have kids
i will be poor
so i think i want to be single all my life
relationships gives me headache.
i prefer working
and spending money like water
see me act like tai tai ah
no la.
psuedo-tai tai

anyway, i so free ah
can update my blog every day
of course i free
wake up
play the cello
which i see that i am so not improving
cause i always get hand cramp
upper bow difficult la.
then entertain myself with the piano
and then surf net
wat a life ah
i rather be stapler girl like rus
or photocopy boy like isa
at least i earn money
do nothing.

people who are
avid readers of my blog
(ya rite like i got fan club ah)
will realise that i am v.
materialistic
cannot help it ah
got some materialistic gene in me
probably located at some chromosome
no 13 or something
i swear.

now who wants to go shopping with me
i wanna buy some clothes from POA.

aiyoh
today i walk from daubhy ghaut
to somerset until my leg
hurt like crazy
then i bought 3 sandals
haha. cause i am greedy
and a poa tshirt
(with neko and ongaku
2 of my fav stuff)
amanda bought 2 sandals
and a tshirt and her
chocopuff. three of them
to indulge alone
and dijah just bought a nose stud???
huh??? dat is so not retail theraphy.

anyway, man oh man.
i feel real guilty about something
maybe i shouldn't open up so fast to
people eh????
being a saggitarian,
i never think before i talk
i must not talk on impulse.
i must hide my true personality
i must not reveal all
i think i hurt someone
bad.
and i am truly sorry
yes. i am chicken
no guts to tell the person face off.

this december
i am staying in this phatetic place
aiyoh.
so sad la.
no snow.
no ski.
no ski pass.
no snow board.

next tuesday
meeting up with
my bestest buddies.
haha. i wont be MIAing
i swear.
i hope they dont go
"wah lau!!! u so fat!!!""
i sensetive lah.
gibberish stuff.
oyasumi.

today is kakak wati wedding
congratulations
that's one person
taken already

today is also ohno-kun
bdae.
happy birthday!!!!
ohno is so kawaiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

anyway, here is some more
redundant post
- If you were a cartoon character, what would you be like?
Rukia from bleach. kakkoi!!

- Can you do anything freakish with your body?
no.

- What feature do you find most attractive on girls/guys?
i look at cute girls. oh my god that's scary.
guys? maybe see their face. duh???

- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?
if she is a good one then yes

- Would you marry for money?
erm ya. my mission in life which everyone noes is to marry a dying billionaire.
make sure all his wealth goes to me after he die.
haha. ok. don tell my rich old dying husband ok?

- Have you had braces?
yes. i miss my braces. i sppose to wear retairners but i couldn't be bothered
wearing them

- Do you wear lip gloss?
no.

- Do you sing in the shower?
not really.

- Do you play any sports?
no. if u count sleeping and eating as a sport then yes.

- Could you live without a computer?
no!!! i been using it since i was 5 lor!!!

- Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo, AIM?
msn. onli if i am blardee bored or doing assignments
yes group discussions online

- If so, how many people are on your list?
alot actually. but i just block off ppl and delete them.
if i don see the need to talk to them.

- If you could live in any past, where would it be?
i prefer the present

- Do you wear white socks?
i rarely wear socks nowdays.

- Do you wear shoes?
when going jogging. ok track shoes

- What is your favorite fruit?
i hate fruits.

- Do you eat wheat bread or white?
white

- What is your favorite place to visit?
japan. ok i am a japan freak. i having japan syndrome now

- Fav DVD?
arashi concert dvds??

- Do you kiss on the first date?
no. i got phobia to meet ppl.

- Are you photogenic?
i don think so.

- Do you dream in color or black and white?
colour.

- What are you wearing right now?
t-shirt and skirt and undergarment??

- Do you eat a lot of fruit?
erm i hate fruits?

- Do you have dimples?
one side onli. no kick.

- Do you remember being born?
no.

- Do you drink alcohol?
no.

- Do you like high school?
no.

- What is the best accent?
singaporean accent.

- Do you like sunsets?
never really seen one.

- Do you want to live to be 100?
no.

- Do you or have you played with a ouija board?
no.

- Are you loyal?
i suppose.

- Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?
yes

- Is music your life?
yes. its lit my career

- Do you like scary movies?
yes.

- Do you think you can draw well?
no. i draw like a three year old.
unless u ask me to draw lab specimens that one i can draw.

- At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real?
i never beleived in santa clause

- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?
never count. i buy but never wear.

- Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday?
yes

- Do you write poetry?
no. i don like lit

- Snore?
no.

- Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?
front. i sleep on my tummy

- Do you like Cats/Dogs?
cats

- Do you lick stamps?
i use e-mail

- Do you use an electric can opener?
no.

- Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?
no.

- Like your name?
yes. except i realise nowdays alot of parents are calling
their daughters amirah. well if don have the 2 ee cam already

- Were you named after anyone?
no.

- Do you wish on stars?
if the star is really bright.
i wish for things like. get highest in class. all a's
never came true leh.

- Which finger is your favorite?
all? i wish it was longer though. then i can play schumann songs.

- When did you last cry?
can't rem when

- What is your favorite band?
Arashi! and orange range!

- Who do you admire?
some billionaire

- What is the 1 priority in your life?
make money. ok. i am money-faced.

- What is your favorite day of the week?
wednesday

from ada's blog:
5 weird things about me

1. i like to boil water

2. i always flush the toilet bowl even if i didn't use it

3. at times of desperation i sleep with my notes. hopefully the notes will diffuse through my brains

4. i can be very noisy but then i can also be dead silent???

5. i can eat non-stop serious!!!

1. First thing you did this morning
wake up and jog

2. Last thing you ate:
2 ps chicken 2 pcs fish 2 pcs banana and 1 cup coffee
is that alot?????

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
no.

4.What's the thing you look forward to most next week or so?
nothing. time passes my holidays are running short. damm

5. What's annoying you right now?
hungry but cannot eat.

6. Whats the last movie you watched?
some love ghost story cant rem title

7. Do you believe in long distance relationship?
if both are serious then yes.

8. What's worse... being in love with someone you can't have or pretending to love someone?
the former.

9. Is there someone you miss so much it makes you sad?
no

10. What inspires you?
$$$$$

11. If you could put together a concert of 5 bands/artists, who would you choose?
arashi, orange range....lidsay lohan,????

12. Lyrics that sums up your love life?
not in the mood for love.
to lazy lah.
love= rshp= commitment= feelings= distractions
too much effort too much work needs to be done

13. What's the one thing you wish you could do better?
i wish my grades were like straight a's instead of straight b's
damm sickening.

14. If you could do anything this second, what would it be?
Sleep!

16. Latest addiction?
sleeping

17. Would you die for someone?
no

18. How many people would you say you are interested in at this moment?
i am interested in ohno. that makes one.

19. Who are you in love with?
no one. i am in love with my cat.

20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily?
my mum, my dad? i suppose

23. What book are you reading right now?
something about the benefits of going to
an all girls schools and this book flatmates.
and also this book abt quotations of the dumbest things ever said.
NLB double ur bks loan so i can borrow 16 books whoa!!!

24. How many people do you know with the same name as yours?
ALOT!!!!!

25. What was the last thing you spilled?
nil

26. If given a chance, what/who do you really want to become?
top 3 list:
a super star?
a heart surgeon
a billlionaire without having to do anything
a a cat with a super kind owner who feeds me every day. so i can just sleep, wake up eat shit.

ok. why is it so difficult to
lose weight
i hate that F word.
Fat.
at the same time i am so damm lazy.
sigh. sigh. sigh.
how is it i can gain 1 kg within
4 days without eating so damm blardee
much??? ok. i ate like normal.
maybe i shouldn't eat the udon.
its making me fat.
who is the blardee culprit.
damm. losing weight is damm difficult
with the stupid food around which makes
u stupidly fat.
if i can just get back to my weight
in jc 1 and maintain it
there like till i die i'd be happy.
i don wan to die fat!!!!
crap. crap. crap.
school also make me fat.
wah lau. after them sem i put on 3 kg
what the hell.
by the time i graduate.
i wont wan to take a picture
during convocation.
maybe i need to see a nutritionist.
gawd.

anyway, i realise that
yr 3 is coming real soon.
after abt 12wks of school
then i'd be in yr 3
and it means no money.
wah lau.
i got to be stingy poker already.
how am i gonna survive?
and support my oh so lavish lifestyle.
i better save my salary from
next month onwards.
that means no spending 6K?
wah lau. then who noes after yr 4
i just might pack on 12 kgs.
if i continue gaining 3 kgs per semester.
then i no money
must go marie france already.
i mean what if i am broke?
will daddy or mummy be so kind
to support me.
at least pay the transport fees.
damm expensive.
stupid public transport
keep on having price hike.
if my salary hike as fast as the
transport hike then
i wont be complaining la.
blardee.

anyway, yesterday nihon was not so bad
at least now sensei from nozomi he became
hikari.
now i am reading GTo manga.
damm pervt.
actually onizuka was the one
who inspired me to teach.
i mean he is the most inspiring teacher ever.
i remember i wrote a tribute to teachers
in my sec sch journal
after watching the last episode of the
drama serial on tv.
sad but true. i draw inspiration from fictional stuff.

so it turns out that
the jw cum ada cum pearl cum me
bdae celebration will become a
xmas cum jw cum ada cum pearl cum me
celebration.
since no one is oh so free.
if weekend ah must wait till the last week of dec
then i free.
if this keeps on
it will be a
amanda cum rus cum prics cum irwin
cum jw*2 cum ada*2 cum pearl*2 cum me *2
celebration.
but cannot leh. next year is imp year
alot of peeps turning 21.
man adult life is tough.
21= murder=death if ur lawyer not good
i am still fretting over being 19 tough.
can i turn 16 or 17. i think 17 is a nice number.
tough 18 means can smoke
and drink alcohol and go pubs
so wat like i care.
teenage years are the best times of one's life
u can behave like an idiot and
blame it on all on hormones.
but nowdays
i see teens
its as though they wan to be adults damm
fast.
if it was me, i think i'd stick
to depending on parents all my
life instead of dealing with responsibilities,
supporting household,
earning a living,
bla bla bla.
yet there are some 21 year old adults
i noe off still living off their parents
man that is sad.
i would have established myself by then
i hope.
i hope to be a single workaholic career woman
by then.
ya that means i am married to
my career.
lala welcome to the real world.

happy bdae ohno-kun this saturday.
u are 25.
ohno is getting old. OH-NO!!!
and i am getting old too.
19........... my God.

this is the kind of post
which is super post.
maybe it is just the hormonal
changes i am facing right now
or maybe it is not.
i just feel very depressed.
i feel depressed about
my life.
this is not the life i want to lead
what is the kind of life i
expected to lead.
sigh sigh sigh.
why am i feeling depressed?
cause i met an old friend of mine
and she got in medicine.
depressed la.
i wanted to be a heart surgeon
and make lots of money
curing ppl with heart attack.
getting into medicine
with wishes of making money
is not a good reason to get into medicine
haha maybe that's why i am not in medicine.
anyway, cannot la.
like last week when i say
my specialist,
wah so sad la.
i see all those beta-thal kids.
like till when they are going to live.
i wonder if her patients die
what does she feel.
i know most of them
die young anyway.
speaking of doctors
there are v. good doctors.
and there are some who are like
ignorant.
like this polyclinic doctor
who asked me to eat iron tablets
when i cannot eat iron tablets
either she forgot
or maybe she just didn't know.
lucky i learn bio.
kill myself ah
eat iron.
ah but i think
the best
doctors
are plastic surgeons
they make people
feel good about themselves
i miss extrim makeover
dr fisher is the best man.
hehe rus why didn't u be
a plastic surgeon!!!!
i think i need to go
british council
my eigo
sucks to the core.
maybe i just need to mix round with
british people
then i will have queen's english.
guess what i cured myself out of depression
need to go watch harry potter.
the most hairiest potter
haha lame.

i am so lazy i don feel like
doing anything.
i just wan to sleep
but got to hatarakimasu..............
need to nemasu.
nemasu....z.zzzz.z.z.z.z.z.

yesterday i tot my video cam
lost
then i was so sad
cost it come me 1K++++++++++
i was so very sad.
i think one of my siblings
played a very mean trick on me
and put it in the dustbin.
i am still quite sour over it actually.
and i will never ever forgive the peson
who did dat even if that person dying of cancer
or die already.
so whoever that person is
u get punished for
wat u did to me in hell.

anyway, 2006 is coming
sian sian sian
ohno-kun's bdae is coming.
haha. i more excited for
his bdae than mine

note to f5+1:
are we gonna have the junwei
cum ada cum pearline cum my bdae??
everyone seem so busy
the onli person i see is rus!!

anyway,
i tried to study
revise jap lesson
one.
my god the words seem so
foreign to me
after 4 months.
must catch up with the shinkansen teacher
and all my classmates
seem very clever
atama iie desu.

anyway,
this year 2005 seem to past very fast
i accomplised some of my resolutions
namely earn 2K
and lose weight.
which is still not up to my expectations
need to lose MORE!!!!!!
but too lazy
and food seems so pleasing

next year my resolution is
earn 2K
don procrastinate
do well in school.
lose and MAINTAIN weight.
don spend money like water.

speaking of do well in school.
school is so pressurizing.
everyone one's to do well.
its like 3-4/7
everyone is a genious
and everbody wants to be first in class
but then the worse part is
u don noe where u stand.
everytime in school
i ask myself
am i good enough???
is this up to the lecturer's expectation??
what is a good assignment
is my assignment up to standard
like its demoralizing
i really want to do my best
but i never perform to my
potential
and when i try really hard
i just dissapoint myself
sigh. ok. depressing.

oh how i wish money grow on trees
and my brain is as advanced
as einstien.
and yet don do anything.
i got the lazy genes.

i am glad to announce that
i have survived year 2 sem 1!!!
yes i finished my exams already.
haha i am so happy.
today watched the emily rose movie
quite scary
then nadia was like
covering her face with the popcorn
most of the time
haha. so funny!!!
then i went to jap and the
teacher talk dammmmmmm
fast like a shinkansen.
this holiday i will plan to bumm
and lose weight
and watch as much tv
and play cello.
and i also have quran classes
ya i must be more holy.
2006 coming soon.
cant take it.
and ohno is so cute.
haha.

cannot tahan already.
studying the whole animal kingdom
make me wann puke.
i cannot take it anymore.
i still have to go and refresh memory.
wah my cnidarian still rusty. i have no idea
how the cloody anthazoans manage to make corals.
i noe one is internal skeleton
the other one is external skeleton.
how i dont know.
porifera i wish it come out cause i damm power
so are my worms. annelida, nematoda and the platyhelminths
but my chaetopterus still rusty ah.
what modified aliform???
and then my arthropods.
they have tagmatization
and the process of moulting let me see.
the hypodermis?? secrete proenzyme inactive form
and then the endocuticle breaks and then ah forget.
hmmm and then my mollusc gastropods exhibit torsion
which is the counter clockwise 180 degree rotation of head and foot
relative to the shell, body (viseral mass)
why it happes?
because the abductor muscles develops faster
in the embroyonic stage.
why???
scientist not sure advntage: viceral mass at anterior region
protection so head can entert the shell first
but the anus is at anterior region
serious sanitation problem
and then still got my echinoderms.
i remember the structure of WVS
and the Aristotle Latntern from the sea urchins
for feeding got 5 teeth to scrape food
then the defence sstem of the blody sea cucumbers

oh still havent finish
got diong's part
i think avian flight will come out.
I NOE HOW BIRDS FLY!!!
basically, because of the cambered wing structure
so bernoullis principle
the air current flows faster at upper wing
surface compared to the lower
region of wing so generates lift (high pressure to low pressure)
and then also got the angle of attack
beyond 15 degrees the blody bird will come to a stall
and must regain proper angel position otherwise
it will crash.
and then the drag forces cause the bird to move backward
but lift cause bird to move upward.

how the bloddy bird is adapted to bipedalism and flight???
bones baby bons
too many reason
let me see....

pneumatic bone
kneeled sternum for attachment of pectoralis muscle
aiyoh too many cant remember.
and then still have how my turtle heart pump blood
turtle is my personal best
2 seperate atrium
one ventricle
devidid in portions
cavum pulmonale, cavum arteriosum, cavum venusum
then still gotr the right to left cardiac shunt
and left to right for crocodile
for what thermoregulation purposes
then then still got the snake tegument stucture
wah too many i dont know i shall continue
hurting my poor brain.
and i havent touch the blardee nerve for 204 die die die.

ohno is so cute
cannot take it haha.
anyway his bdae coming soon.
and i am already having
japan syndrome.
not going this year is like.
wtf.
okay. anyway,
i should be studying.
crapiness.
ok. i just took a 4 hoiur break??
haha.
arashi's song wish is damm cool.
so x-masy.
nice. nice.
i like.
the pv is also damm cute.

ok i cant take it anymore
i really have to get
this of my chest.
203 pract paper SUCKED!!!!!wah!!!!
i tot can score for invert
then when dr lim tell us the ans
wah lau so many wrong!!!!
i mean how are we expected to think
within that five minutes.its too nerve wrecking!!!
ithen for my verts
wah to think i studied my dentition
and i forgot that magic word
CARNASSIAL TEETH!!!
SECTORIAL TYPE OF TEETH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wah lau wah lau wah lau!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but eggs protochordates all the ones
i tot wont come out came out
see la.
study also no point if i study
got loophole one.
and there is this stupid skull
which was a turtle skull
and i seriously tot it was
dinasaur skull!!!!!
can u imagine i forgote that trematodes is platyhelminths
i was thinking that cestode is platyhelminth
argh!!!
cannot think like dat la.
and i got no time to write finish!!!!!
but most depressing is carnassial teeth
how could i forget that word????
wah i am gonna obsess about it one corner
its really a module no
bio student would one to do
i rather learn
dr chia's developmental
genetics!!!

i hate physics
its the most boring
ewwewsest subject alive.
i take 3 hours to study one blardee topic.
my God i HATE physics.

hari raya coming.
wheeee...
exams also coming double wheee....
cant wait for this sem to
finally end.

sayonara!!!