obsession

ok. why is it so difficult to
lose weight
i hate that F word.
Fat.
at the same time i am so damm lazy.
sigh. sigh. sigh.
how is it i can gain 1 kg within
4 days without eating so damm blardee
much??? ok. i ate like normal.
maybe i shouldn't eat the udon.
its making me fat.
who is the blardee culprit.
damm. losing weight is damm difficult
with the stupid food around which makes
u stupidly fat.
if i can just get back to my weight
in jc 1 and maintain it
there like till i die i'd be happy.
i don wan to die fat!!!!
crap. crap. crap.
school also make me fat.
wah lau. after them sem i put on 3 kg
what the hell.
by the time i graduate.
i wont wan to take a picture
during convocation.
maybe i need to see a nutritionist.
gawd.

anyway, i realise that
yr 3 is coming real soon.
after abt 12wks of school
then i'd be in yr 3
and it means no money.
wah lau.
i got to be stingy poker already.
how am i gonna survive?
and support my oh so lavish lifestyle.
i better save my salary from
next month onwards.
that means no spending 6K?
wah lau. then who noes after yr 4
i just might pack on 12 kgs.
if i continue gaining 3 kgs per semester.
then i no money
must go marie france already.
i mean what if i am broke?
will daddy or mummy be so kind
to support me.
at least pay the transport fees.
damm expensive.
stupid public transport
keep on having price hike.
if my salary hike as fast as the
transport hike then
i wont be complaining la.
blardee.

anyway, yesterday nihon was not so bad
at least now sensei from nozomi he became
hikari.
now i am reading GTo manga.
damm pervt.
actually onizuka was the one
who inspired me to teach.
i mean he is the most inspiring teacher ever.
i remember i wrote a tribute to teachers
in my sec sch journal
after watching the last episode of the
drama serial on tv.
sad but true. i draw inspiration from fictional stuff.

so it turns out that
the jw cum ada cum pearl cum me
bdae celebration will become a
xmas cum jw cum ada cum pearl cum me
celebration.
since no one is oh so free.
if weekend ah must wait till the last week of dec
then i free.
if this keeps on
it will be a
amanda cum rus cum prics cum irwin
cum jw*2 cum ada*2 cum pearl*2 cum me *2
celebration.
but cannot leh. next year is imp year
alot of peeps turning 21.
man adult life is tough.
21= murder=death if ur lawyer not good
i am still fretting over being 19 tough.
can i turn 16 or 17. i think 17 is a nice number.
tough 18 means can smoke
and drink alcohol and go pubs
so wat like i care.
teenage years are the best times of one's life
u can behave like an idiot and
blame it on all on hormones.
but nowdays
i see teens
its as though they wan to be adults damm
fast.
if it was me, i think i'd stick
to depending on parents all my
life instead of dealing with responsibilities,
supporting household,
earning a living,
bla bla bla.
yet there are some 21 year old adults
i noe off still living off their parents
man that is sad.
i would have established myself by then
i hope.
i hope to be a single workaholic career woman
by then.
ya that means i am married to
my career.
lala welcome to the real world.

happy bdae ohno-kun this saturday.
u are 25.
ohno is getting old. OH-NO!!!
and i am getting old too.
19........... my God.