obsession

i am so lazy i don feel like
doing anything.
i just wan to sleep
but got to hatarakimasu..............
need to nemasu.
nemasu....z.zzzz.z.z.z.z.z.

yesterday i tot my video cam
lost
then i was so sad
cost it come me 1K++++++++++
i was so very sad.
i think one of my siblings
played a very mean trick on me
and put it in the dustbin.
i am still quite sour over it actually.
and i will never ever forgive the peson
who did dat even if that person dying of cancer
or die already.
so whoever that person is
u get punished for
wat u did to me in hell.

anyway, 2006 is coming
sian sian sian
ohno-kun's bdae is coming.
haha. i more excited for
his bdae than mine

note to f5+1:
are we gonna have the junwei
cum ada cum pearline cum my bdae??
everyone seem so busy
the onli person i see is rus!!

anyway,
i tried to study
revise jap lesson
one.
my god the words seem so
foreign to me
after 4 months.
must catch up with the shinkansen teacher
and all my classmates
seem very clever
atama iie desu.

anyway,
this year 2005 seem to past very fast
i accomplised some of my resolutions
namely earn 2K
and lose weight.
which is still not up to my expectations
need to lose MORE!!!!!!
but too lazy
and food seems so pleasing

next year my resolution is
earn 2K
don procrastinate
do well in school.
lose and MAINTAIN weight.
don spend money like water.

speaking of do well in school.
school is so pressurizing.
everyone one's to do well.
its like 3-4/7
everyone is a genious
and everbody wants to be first in class
but then the worse part is
u don noe where u stand.
everytime in school
i ask myself
am i good enough???
is this up to the lecturer's expectation??
what is a good assignment
is my assignment up to standard
like its demoralizing
i really want to do my best
but i never perform to my
potential
and when i try really hard
i just dissapoint myself
sigh. ok. depressing.

oh how i wish money grow on trees
and my brain is as advanced
as einstien.
and yet don do anything.
i got the lazy genes.